PearlyWhirly

So i have been in swindon for 3 months now and i hate it. its rubbish and far away from everyone, has no jobs, is linked to everywhere by motorways that are always covered in crashes and mean i dont get to see my friends like ever. im going so mad i even slightly miss my family. the only good thing about it is it being my own place with James but ugh its still swindon.

I have to do everything housey for myself now such as washing ironing and food shopping UGH hate all three but as such i’ve put myself on a diet and have lost 33lbs so far which is obviously quite a feet and im impressed with myself. you can follow my diet progress at - ukdukan.wordpress.com

I have two interviews with the nhs over the next few weeks which will be good, i cant wait to get back into working. i was working when i first came here but i didnt like it and had a bit of a breakdown and quit =p

oh wells, i have enough money to keep me going for a while =]

yep in three days time, i shall no longer be a resident of bristol, im moving as James has a placement at intel in swindon, we have a lovely flat and everything is nearly ready. im just so wound up, he has exams this week so is meant to be revising as well as packing, but at the moment games and food seem to be the most important things. i dont get to see him because he is ‘revising’ garh anyway thats the end of my spitful rant.

uni finishes in two weeks (of which one week is half term) and i’ve already finished my work, im very proud of myself, i mainly did it so i can concentrate on packing and then unpacking, and getting settled and the such without having to worry.

there is just too much going on and too much to sort out, so many change of addresses, packing, phoning to arrange things, stuff to buy, and being lonely due to being stuck by myself. that it is one of those times were i really would love a cigarette, i haven’t smoked for 9 months now, but times like these would have been when i enjoyed it most / when i miss it most. so much so i cant help crying and fidgeting trying to fight off cravings. i would love to just sit and relax outside in the warm evening and enjoy it with a cigarette. i feel like saying screw it because no one else sticks to their promises or supports me, or says well done. and i’d be thinner and happier. but i am better than that, i cant do that to people. maybe i can if they push me enough?

So i’ve been enjoying uni lots, were doing typography at the moment, focusing on producing calenders, ive decided to go for typographical portraits =]

ummm what else has been going on, oh i passed my test and got myself a little car, i love it =] and were driving to street on saturday so that will be my first long drive. i survived my first trip on the motorway - though i dont think the last section of the m32 counts as a motorway =p

iunno - just an update

christmas was ok, spent it at home, got lots of nice things, now back to uni and the such and my deadline is in two weeks, i have tons to do.

have considered that im going to have to get rid of all my creatures =[ seeing as were morning in june. I shall have to find someone who would like two lovely but messy chinchillas, and need to sell the BiOrb, im keeping the betta as he doesn't take up too much room plus he gorgeous =]

i bought a DSi with my christmas money, which has become a little bit addictive, ive completed one game and im close to completing the second. ummm what else its day 32 and things have improved =] many months to go yet though apparently.

and i need to look back and figure out how many days / months it been since i quit smoking =] - 114 days =] =]

day 1

Exercise

Learn new things

Help others

Connect with friends and family

Notice the beauty of everyday life

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The biorb is packed up until i can afford to cycle it, heat it and set it up as tropical, so thats not intil after xmas aleast. on that not i have done all my xmas shopping just need to get things wrapped up.

and i have a new fishy =] a betta splenda - siamese fighting fish.